"Even though I hadn't met my baby, the amount of love and excitement I had in my heart was unlike anything I'd ever felt. Listening to its heartbeat for the first time on the ultrasound, staring at the the ultrasound pictures on my fridge in awe of the little life growing inside of you. I couldn't wait to be a father and I felt so blessed everyday that it would grow up with you as its mother."Because of all of the uncontrollable excitement, Brandon admits he let the big secret slip a few times. Kylee couldn't help but laugh at him.
"I couldn't help it and told multiple family members and close friends and you'd always say,RELATED: Woman opens up about losing her husband just days after their son was born'Brandon! You can never keep a secret!'
And I'd just smile and say, 'I'm sorry, I'm just too excited.'"
"I'm sorry I'm breaking my promise right now and telling everyone a couple weeks early, but I was so proud of you, and I want everyone to know how committed you were to this child, how health conscious you were, how you would go online each week and tell me things like, 'Our baby is the size of grapefruit right now,' or 'Did you know our baby has already started to develop eyelids?!' ... I could feel the warmth and purpose our child gave you, and I knew I needed to be the best man I could possibly be for both of you, to keep you comfortable and safe. I couldn't keep you safe last night."The terrible loss came right around Christmas, and the festive decorations only accentuated his loss.
"This Christmas was going to be the best ever. I'm currently staring at my first Christmas Tree I've had in my home in years, a tree that you and I found and cut down together. The base of the tree is filled with presents to me, from you. Beautifully wrapped and neatly stacked."
"I miss you so much Ky. I've always been able to fix things and solve problems for people, but I don't know what to do from here. I feel helpless. I'm still waiting for you to walk in the door. I love you so very much Kylee, I know you'll be the best Mom in heaven to our little one when he/she is born in June. I wish I could see its little face just one time. I know it would have been beautiful just like its mother."Brandon's heartbreaking post was shared more than 160,000 times in just 24 hours. Support poured in from all over. Messages of condolences, words of encouragement, and donations to help with funeral arrangements. And while nothing but time and God's grace can heal Brandon's aching heart, there was certainly some consolation that in a time of such darkness, light flooded in from all around the world.
"Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ." Galatians 6:2Please continue to lift Brandon and all of Kylee's family up in prayer. [rsnippet id="2"]